You left

You said you would never leave
But you left
You said you would always be there
But when I needed you most,
You weren't...

You said I could call you whenever
I needed you
But you disappeared
I couldn't find you
No matter how much I searched
You were nowhere to be found

It took one week before
I got a message that you were okay
You were having a tough time too
I was worried
I wanted to help
But you were gone

You came back
Saying how much you missed me
But I was here all the time
You could have reached me whenever

Am I mad at you?
No, I know you didn't want to
It wasn't your choise
Am I hurt?
Yeah, I am

I am sorry to say this
Me writing this
Maybe I hurt you
Hopefully you will never read it

I'm not special

All the things he said to me
Those little things he said to let me know how I made him feel, how much he loved me
The compliments

I hear him use the exact same lines on other girls now
Even right in front of me

Things I thought were special
Between him and me

That meant something
I was wrong

I believed in what he said
But I was wrong

Our first date, the fancy restaurant, the fancy meal
I know that cost him a great deal of money
It was amazing
No one had done anything like that for me before

He's taking her there now
Same place, same deal
He told me

Everything he said he did for me
He's doing for anyone

I'm not special
I never really thought I was
But I did think maybe I was just a little bit special to him
I was wrong

It's not that I don't believe in recycling
Quite contrary, I do
And I know I must accept he moved on
It's just that...

He didn't just end our relationship
He also took all memories
Everything that was special to me

He took everything special away from me
And is now giving it to other girls

I am not special
I never was

I never will be

Because he also took my trust
I don't want to be fooled again